11.11.2012

my art heart

summer is over
and harvest is in.
 
three weeks ago i started an art journaling class from
junelle jacobsen from yes and amen.
 
 
learning to take where we are and seeing the beauty in our mess.
 
life is not easy.
no it's not.
we all have trials and struggles.
disappointments and pain.
 
i tend to clam up.
not to share where i am.
to hide from reality.
and from those who truly love me.
 
i don't want them to see my pain.
my weaknesses.
my sin.
 
 
 
i think that i can get through it alone.
that i alone, must work harder to overcome.
 
 
then i read this post from ann voskamp...
 
she writes...'the word God wastes nothing and He heals
two broken hearts with one story-the reader and the writer.

 
then this morning i read this post by junelle jacobsen...
 
she writes...'So, I am moving when God moves. I am under His watch and care. I am held. He knows me, the real me, the silly hideherheadinherpillow me. He knows the groanings of my heart and He loves to wipe the tears from my eyes. He is my first love, my real and lasting love. And I don't have to do this life alone.'

 
God has been working on me and in me to share.
my story.
not the details, but the struggles,
the pain,
the disappointments.
but also the hope i have in Him.
 
earlier this year i prayed that my art would be real.
more honest.
full of hope and encouragement.
little did i know that He would give me more struggles.
more pain.
more disappointments.
and keep me there.
to use in my art.
so that through my life, my art would be more alive.


 
so i want to live more intentionally.
more authentically.
to trust Him.
to give of myself.
to help heal.
not just my heart.
but someone else's heart as well.
 
not only in real life but here on my blog as well.
i hope you will join me.
not only as i share my journey,
but yours as well.
 
 
 
in His loving name...
 
 

4 comments:

Jennifer {Studio JRU} said...

So, so beautiful, Alissa! I hope the same things for my life, my blog and my art. Thanks so much for sharing your heart. Loved reading this today!

Jennie said...

I just love you, Alissa! May God use what He has allowed in your life to be a blessing to others and to be an arrow to Him...I love your art and your heart :)

alexa said...

Such touching words, and I love what uyour hands are doing with your art! (Just popped over from Junelle's Art of Wild Abandonment 2).

Lois Olson said...

Alissa, this is so beautifully written. I'm so glad you're sharing it.

It's amazing the healing that comes through art. And my ability to see Him in my world is much stronger when I'm creating.

I've been going through a season of pain lately as well. Those desert times are not easy, for sure. But the richness of what God shows me during those times can't be duplicated when all is well with my world.

You're not alone, my fellow artist.